Wednesday, April 25, 2018

If All of My Relationships Fail and I Have No Children Do I Even Know What Love Is • National Poetry Month


If All of My Relationships Fail and I Have No Children Do I Even Know What Love Is
This fireman comes every afternoon
to the café on the corner
dressed for his shift in clean dark blues
This time       it’s the second Wednesday of January
and he’s meeting his daughter again
who must be five or six
and who is always waiting for her father like this
in her charcoal gray plaid skirt
with green and red stripes
She probably comes here straight from school
her glasses a couple nickels thick
 
By now I know     that she can sit       (except
for her one leg swinging from the chair)  
absolutely still      while her father pulls   
fighters’ wraps from his work bag
and begins half way down the girl’s forearm
winding the fabric in overlapping spirals
slowly toward her fist           then     he props      
her wrist      like a pro    on his own hand 
unraveling the black cloth   weaving it   
between her thumb and forefinger
around the palm             taut but
not so much that it cuts off the blood          then
up the hand and between the other fingers
to protect the knuckles         the tough    
humpback guppies just under the skin  
 
He does this once with her left       then again
to her right   To be sure her pops knows he has done
a good job     she nods        Good job       Good 
Maybe you’re right              I don’t know what love is
A father kisses the top of his daughter’s head
and knocks her glasses cockeyed
He sits back and downs the last of the backwash
in his coffee cup         They got 10 minutes to kill
before they walk across the street    down the block
and out of sight         She wants to test
her dad’s handiwork            by throwing  
a couple jab-cross combos from her seat
There is nothing in the daughter’s face  
that says     she is afraid     
There is nothing in the father’s face       
to say he is not                     He checks his watch         
then holds up his palms    as if to show his daughter    
that nothing is burning                     In Philadelphia
there are fires      I’ve seen those  in my lifetime too

by Patrick Rosal
Courtesy poets.org

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