Perdu
I no longer appear
in photos. No one pictures me
in the moment. Poolside, red
plastic cup in hand, smiling faces,
a dripping child on a grandmother’s
damp lap, squinting into the sun. Bride
and groom in white, surrounded by
well-dressed pastel-flocked crowd
on the dark parquet dance floor. Groaning
picnic table, red and white checkered
tablecloth, tanned patriarch flanked by
children and grandchildren biting into
crispy black hot dogs, crunchy pickles,
sticky pink watermelon. Around
the dining table, goofing in the mashed
potatoes, a selfie with Dad. Adorable,
adoring stealth shots: watching tv, nothing
adoring stealth shots: watching tv, nothing
special, Happy Days reruns, teens in
identical superhero t-shirts, stuck in time.
There are no gaps, no holes,
no negative space unfilled.
I am not redacted.
I am naught.
by Chris Fow Cohen
with permission of the author